So Close, and yet, So far

It' so strange how I feel like I live 100 miles away. But maybe I do. I live a half an hour away from anything and anyone. It is just far enough away to make it inconvenient for me to visit people and for people to visit me. I don't want to drive a half an hour home, just to drive a half an hour back into town on the same night. That's an hour of pointless driving.

Sometimes I wish I lived over a 100 miles away so there would be a better excuse for me to not visit people, and for people not to visit me. That way the reason isn't just pure laziness.

My Own Space

I just want my own space. My own little place to call home. A place I'm not embarrassed to call home. I don't want to constantly clean, I don't want a bunch of crap everywhere. I want a place I can decorate to look like a girl lives here. I don't want huge speakers or a big screen t.v. I want pink, and purple. I want pretty. I want clean. I want it to look nice. I want my own space.

I want my own room, my own house, my own place.

I'm the only one here that doesn't just have my own place. I have to share everything. I feel like if I have to share everything I might as well have a ring right? But no. I get all of the consequences with none of the benefits. I'm an old married woman, with none of the benefits.

So, for now. I either want a ring, or want my own space. Not necessarily my own place...just my own little area to call my own.

The Olympics

The Olympic Torch

couldn't get too close--hour long wait--but a pretty good ZOOOMED up picture if I don't say so myself!!!!

The winter olympics are up in Vancouver this year. When you only live about 40 mins away, why not go and just see what it's all about?If you don't have tickets to a game or something, there isn't much to do. Hour long lines to get into anything, people everywhere, and more street performers then you would ever think. But it was still an experience.

Canada Spirt! I loved it! So much red and white everywhere!

Josh got injured....you will see why shortly...

He helped this crazy guy climb a 15 ft unicycle!!!

CRAZY!!!!

There were crazy decorations everywhere! Trees, buildings. So much Canada pride. It was a lot of fun....but I like Seattle better ; )

Once again...

I am sick. I've been sick for the last two days. It started tuesday when I got home from work. The cold shivers, and a nauseous stomach. I took my temperature: 102. Great? 2 kids went home from school last week because they had the stomach flu, so I knew immediately that is what I had. I woke up on Wednesday morning by running to the bathroom and "releasing" everything I ate the day before. My stomach defiantly felt better after that, but I still had a fever, so I knew I couldn't go to work.

I spent the whole of wednesday on the couch, sleeping for a total of 17 hours. I couldn't keep anything down. I ended the day with a fever of 103.7. Awesome. I didn't go to work today either because I woke up with the same "surprise" I had the day before. Thank goodness, I feel almost normal today.

I love working with kids more then anything, but I hate being sick all the time. This is the most I have been sick in a long time! It's miserable. I am missing so much work. I haven't had a full paycheck in more then a month, and my bank account is defiantly feeling it! I need to find a way to kick up my immune system!

Dear Fellow Travelers:

Dear Fellow Travelers:

In August I will be traveling to Europe for about a month, with two of my best friends and my sister. We will be staying in Germany for about 2 weeks, and then we will be traveling in Great Britain (Scotland, Ireland, England, and Wales). Ivy and I might travel to Italy for a few days before Great Britain, but we haven't decided that far yet (or if we could afford it?).

We have got it narrowed down to the countries, but have not narrowed it down to the cities. Does anyone know of cities we should try and hit? Places, and things to do?

Any, and all, help and advice is greatly appreciated. I have never planned a vacation before, let alone a vacation in a different country!

I'm starting to get into planning mode, and I am super excited. Stay tuned for an itinerary, and exact dates!!! This blog will soon be full of images of great lands, and great memories!

Pants from High School: Almost There!

Warning: Slight nudity in this post, but you've seen less of me in a bathing suit, so suck it up! Ha!

I am not obsessed with losing weight, but I am very persistent on being healthy. Since I had a "sit-down" job for over a year, I gained a lot of weight. My goal now is to just fit into my pants I used to wear in high school. I have researched a lot on how to lose weight in a correct way, without harming my body in any way. My diet consists of eating healthy (low carbs, lots of veggies, fruits, and lots of protien. Very little sugars, and artificial flavors), and I exercise about 4 days a week for an hour. I'm not losing weight fast, but I am losing weight right. And now I am really starting

to notice a change.

The first thing I noticed is my stamina is starting to improve (get your minds out of the gutter people!). I was in Fred Meyers the other day, and forgot to get something from the back of the grocery store while I was in line. I had my sister wait in line as I ran back. I ran all the way to the back, and back up, and I didn't even start breathing heavy or break a sweat! It was amazing. In the past, a small run like that I would have almost collapsed. I was not fit at all. But now, I can run for about a half an hour and feel nothing. It's amazing!

The next thing I noticed is the fact that my pants are starting to fit very loose! I have already posted a picture of the changes in pants size, but now it seems like I'm going to have more pants sizes to add to the picture.

I was feeling really comfident today, so I decided to try on my jeans from high school (the size 3/4's), and was very surprised with the results:

I am ALMOST there. I can button them (with a severe case of "muffin top"), but I only have a few more inches until it will be no problem buttoning them. At my peak weight I couldn't even get them past my thighs!!! As you can see, I do have a little ways to go before I have my flat belly back, but I am no longer embarrassed to post a picture of my stomach on a blog, so that is a good sign!

I am so excited because I have been a little in the dumps because I am not losing weight, but now I think I am just gaining muscle instead.

It wont be too much longer until you will see pictures of me in a bikini....I know you are all waiting for the day!!! Ha....don't get too excited fellas!

40 year old woman....trapped!

I don't enjoy people my own age. I don't enjoy hanging out with anyone close to my age. There are few I can enjoy and have a great time with, but that is one in a million.

I don't enjoy immaturity, I don't enjoy stupid decisions that you want me to justify for you, I don't think it's cool to drink more then maybe once a month, I don't care that you think you're fat....you probably are...so do something about it, I don't care that you don't want to...get up...and stop being lazy, your problems aren't the most important thing in the world...and no one really cares, you aren't right...you never will be right...and no one really cares if you are or are not, you have to work for your money, everything doesn't come on a silver platter, life sucks sometimes....so shrug it off and move on, stop being a whiney baby...plain and simple.

Kids my own age suck. Seriously.