Kids and Parenting

Josh is a nanny for the next two weeks. He has a 4 year old and a 10 year old to take care of. It's really eye opening. Yesterday we took them to the pumpkin patch, driving our little mini van and had a nice "family time". It was great, fun, and everyone enjoyed themselves. But it made me think of so many things.

For one, parents are awful! I can't tell you how many times I heard parents screaming at their kids for doing something "wrong" like just touching a pumpkin, or picking a rotting apple off the ground, or running instead of walking. Really parents, do you have to lose your cool about every little thing your child does that isn't "perfect"? Kids are just kids! They are curious, and interested in everything. And guess what, it is a pumpkin patch that is geared towards kids! So they want the kids to run, and touch things, and have fun...that is the whole points! I heard a parent say, "Now don't touch that, now you MIND ME!" Ha, Josh and I turned to eachother and laughed SO HARD! It was absolutly rediculous!

Now obviously, I am not a parent, and really, have no idea what it is like. I don't have to deal with the stress of not sleeping and all that right now. However, I do have experience with kids. I work with 2 year olds 40 hours a week. Then this weekend, I get to spend my spare time with the kids, so I do have a little experience. And in my experience I have learned that kids listen better if you talk to them like normal people, and don't yell at them like they are your little pet. But, that is just a thought.

I never want my future children to act like little perfect robots! I want them to run, and touch things, and do things that are wrong. And I want to redirect their interest into what is the right thing to run too, and what is the right thing to touch.

Besides noticing "parenting", and realizing that Josh and I have very similar ideas about "parenting", I have also realized there is no way I want one of those little persons right now! Ha! No babies for now for me. Yes, I go through little spurts of really wanting children. But then, it's over. I really like to work with kids, then come home and be a kid myself. I like doing what I want, when I want, whenever I want. And it is going to stay that way for a long while.

I'll just take care of kids for now!

Running/Working Out/Dieting

Running, Working out, and Dieting...

...are some of the things I have not been doing succesfully lately. I am actually starting to regain some of the weight that I had initially lost. I have reached an awful breaking point in my weight goal--a part where my weight is doing the opposite of what I want. I need to reboost my weight loss.

I have a membership to a gym that I have paid for, for the last two months, and I have used it exactly ZERO times. I am loosing my adreniline that I had built up. I need to go back. I miss running. I miss the running high. I miss it all.

And yet, I just can't get the motivation again. I need to find a way to get the motivation I had last year.

I have a fridge full of healthy food, and yet all I want is burgers, and pizza, and fat-carbfilled-food. Yum.

I need motivation to get my butt back into gear.

Britney

Britney Spears says it best, "I'm not a girl, not yet a woman".

That is exactly how I feel right now. I am in that typical "twenty something" stage, where everything just seems like I am doing something wrong. Nothing feels right, and I can't figure out what is. I have no idea who I am, and who I want to be.

Of course, I love how my life is going. I love my job, my boyfriend, my dog, my life. But, something still feels wrong about this whole thing. There is something wrong, with me. I'm holding something back, but I don't know what. I haven't quite discovered who I am, and who I want to be yet.

I don't even know my own personality. Am I the wierd "hardcore, mega, bitch, extreme"? Or am I the sweet, young, daycare worker that loves children and loves art. Do I like to go out clubbing? Or would I rather stay at home and draw? Am I a loner? Do I like being around people? Honestly, you would assume these would be things I could figure out myself, but really, I don't know. I am just in this strange inbetween stage. This stage where I still love to go out and hang with my friends, but I am starting to realize I like other things more. A stage where I always want to be around my friends, but realize "me time" is wonderful. I'm in a stage where I am just stuck.

"I'm not a girl, not yet a woman", oh Britney, there must be a little something in that shaved head of yours, because your words speak to me tonight.

Halloween Costume

What do you think?

Ever since I was five years old I have been told that I act like Lucille Ball. I don't know if that is necisarily a good thing or not, but I kind of agree with them. Josh has been known to comming home to a kitchen full of bubbles from me putting in the wrong soap, or making way too much food so forcing myself to eating it all because I don't know how to store it, I once swallowed egg yolk...BY ACCIDENT! Very I-Love-Lucy-esqu don't you think?

So perhaps I would be too much in character in this costume??

Moving

I absolutly, 100% hate moving. Yes, the moving part is very tedious (the driving back and forth, and the waste of days, and the fact that stuff just "fluffs up" while you are packing), but to me, the worst part about moving is: UNPACKING! It is such an absolute pain. It is such endless, tedious work. And again, the stuff just "fluffs up" the more you unpack.I am so happy of where we moved. I love the location, the house, the yard, everything, but I would love it more if I was happy to show it off. Right now there is so much junk everywhere, that I just feel like I live in a redneck, "hickville", establshment. It's such a bummer.

I'm going to take some "before pictures" of my house, and hopefully, the pictures will get better and better as the blog goes on.

This is my living room/dinning room/kitchen. It's wonderfully open. I love it. Once it is a little more organized, and pictures are up, I know it will be amazing.

This is my crap room. Seriously. We have two bedrooms. And this one we are just using as a junk room right now. I think this will be my worst challenge. Eventually, we want to turn it into an art room/music studio. But right now, I'm so overwhelmed with the mess, I just can't see where it will start.

This is the house. It is so cute! This is what it looks like from the street. Next summer, I hope I will have planted more flowers. It is so pretty!

Right now I am completly overwhelmed with all the un-packing. It seems like it will never end. But, I know that if I just work, the results will be worth it. I just need to get some dang motivation!