The Sisterhood of the ever-changing Pant Size!

This picture is a little embarrassing, but I love it. The black pair in the back are my pants I would wear at my peak weight. The middle jeans are the jeans I wear now, and the front jeans are the ones I wore in highschool. It really shows how far I have come from my peak weight, and how little I have to go to make it to where I want to be. I just want to fit into my old highschool jeans again, and really, I don't have too far to go.

The picture is embarrassing, just to know how large I became, but it is also inspiring. It shows how far I have come, and how little I have left to go. The middle pair of jeans are already loose on me, so it wont be too much longer to get back to where I was. I'm so inspired by this picture, I just needed to share my inspiration with you.

There is nothing you can't do if you put your mind to it!

My Life

My life can be described in these three pictures:

WORK

GYM

SCHOOL

...and that is about it. I feel as if I have no social life, no friends, nothing else. And yet, I have never been happier. What is wrong with me?

Perhaps since I have finally found what I want to do with my life, work with children, and I am finally perusing my passion, I am feeling more accomplished? I'm not sure...but whatever it is, I'm not complaining.

Sick

Three Days of Missing work = $199.50

One visit to the Walk-in Clinic = $101.76

One prescription = $43.99

Total = $345.25

No Insurance, Bacterial Infection and Viral Tonsillitis, and having to sit home for three days watching bad T.V = Priceless

New Year

Last January was the first time I made New Years resolutions. I have never made resolutions before then, because I was always afraid of failure, but I decided to make several last January, despite my pessimism.

Reflecting over my resolutions from last year, I realize, that I still have a long way to go for several of them:

1) Eat Well, and Exercise often.

For the most part, I have done this. In this last year I have found out I am insulin resistant, so with that, I was forced to eat well. I have done well with eating well. The exercise is a different story...

This year, I hope to continue to eat well, but add in some exercise. Steph and I are going to join a gym and hopefully do a boot camp in January, so that will help guide me along in this new venture.

BIKINI BY SUMMER! That is my goal!

2) Put at least $3000 in my savings account by the end of the year.

CHECK!!!! I'm so proud of myself!

3) I will not live up to the "Super Hard Core Mega Bitch Extreme" name.

Nope! Not even close. I think in this last year I have come more to terms with that name, and no longer do I find it a "bad" name. I feel like that name does not represent a bad side of me, but rather a side of me I enjoy. If you are nice to me, I am your best friend, but if you betray me, or lose my trust, I live up to my name. I think it is a way of helping me with coming to terms with my next resolution:

4) I will not hang out with people that do not support me, who I am, or make me into a bad person.

This was my toughest resolution from last year, and I am sad to report that this is not accomplished at all. I think I have realized that everyone I know has their moments of not supporting me, and who I am. The problem is, is that I live during an age where everyone is so self-centered, that no one really cares enough. I feel that I have very few close friends, and even fewer that actually understand and support me. I will continue working on this, but I am coming to terms with the fact that this is more of a "life long" resolution then one that can take place in only a year. It's more of a life goal, then a resolution.

I am proud of myself for actually accomplishing the few resolutions I had. If not actually completing the goal, I at least know I'm on the right path to completion.

Bring on 2010, this year will be the best, because it is now.