Opportunities

Opportunities are only given to the weak, the rest of us have to fight for what we want. Recently I was reading up on private schools (just for shits and giggles) and noticed a selling point they had for some of the schools. "99 percent of our grads go to college." While that is great and all I feel like that is less about academics and more about opportunities. 

There was a very large percent of my graduating class that decided on a two-year school over a four-year university.  Was this because they didn't get accepted or weren't smart enough? No, it was mainly for financial reasons. My school wasn't full of wealthy socialites, but rather, full of kids of the working class. We aren't given the opportunities.  We have to work for what we are given.

The sad part is that sometimes you have to realize that when you start at the bottom it is impossible to work your way up no matter how far you climb. A fish can never truly climb a tree no matter how hard it tries. Sometimes the normal people truly are just normal. And I guess that is as good as it gets.

Always the "Smart Girl"...

I was always the "Smart Girl". If someone needed help with their homework, or needed an answer to a question, they would come to me. I usually knew the answer, or at least how to find it. When I was talking to people, they always said I sounded "educated" with the vacabulary I used. I never thought I was a genious, but I did know I was smart.

I never took pride in my appearance, or thought I was the "Pretty Girl". I knew I was smart, and I am good with that. I am a very confident person, I don't need people to tell me if I look good. I knew I was smart, and really that is good enough.

It wasn't until recently that I found out that I am not the "Smart Girl". I always knew I was smart, and thought I was pretty, but it turns out I am both. Or, at least that's what I got from it.

A few weeks ago I found out that an old friend of my fiance has been talking bad about me. I'm not sure of all the details, but I know she thinks I am "dumb". She often corrects my spelling on social media sites, and likes to . I always thought she was just joking and being fun, but I guess I was mistaking. The funny thing is, when I found that out all I could do was laugh.

This news only made me more confident. I was always the "Smart Girl". And, I still am. Just because she thinks she is smarter then me (at just grammar I guess?), doesn't mean I am dumb. So, of course that didn't bother me. But, the weird part about this information is that it actually made me more confident. The reason? Because I know she thinks I'm pretty. She has made many remarks to my looks, and it has always come across in a positive way. This girl doesn't think I'm smart, but I know she thinks I'm pretty.

I guess I am now the "Pretty Girl". The funny thing, is I know I am still the "Smart Girl", but now I also know that I am the "Pretty Girl". I really do have it all.

Sometimes all it takes is one comment to really boost your self-esteem. Because we all knew I had a problem with confidence right?